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Ford, StanWeek Of Meetings 1970-01 ~ Personal Testimony

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I don't know if I've ever been to a land where they have to make a big jacket. Well, that's fair, apparently. Hundred feet today, let's go. I don't like doing it, and I don't often do. A matter of fact, like Texas will be almost two or three years in my life in my head. Since I've been over in America, every place I did do it before trying to twist my arm to get me to do it. But then I always tell them, well, the Lord tells me to do it, and I'll do it. And if you tell me to do it, I won't do it. And that's it. I must have, I don't enjoy it, in fact. I remind myself of things that have paradigms in turn, and I rather forget. You know, your uncle found it all out in the seventh chapter, a Roman city. When he came in again, he said, I, I, I, I, I, I, is it thirty-two times in the seventh chapter? I, I, I, I. And then he came to an end and said, Oh, wretched man that I am. And I'd my father speak to you like the Lord Jesus, and ever speak to you like my father. They're sharing with you just a little of what the Lord has done and a little of the way the Lord has led me. It'll send you from this place to say, well, if God has saved him, he can save anyone. Then I'll be glad of that. My background has been somewhat different, I suppose, than most of you, although not different words. I said to you, I was there. I wasn't brought up when I said to you in a hug. Now, please, don't misunderstand me. I was thought I'm in a good hug. I was brought up in a home where my mum loved my dad and my dad loved my mother. I was brought up in a home where we learned, maybe they weren't Christian things, but we learned the principles of Jesus' living anyway. And it was from those that I turned away. My father was jacked in the First World War. And it was left to mum to bring up her born. I grew up at school. Well, I was a pick-headed as anyone could be, and I wasn't all very infected. I used to tell them, oh, they'd always need someone to do a trial at the moment, and I can't keep the rest of them up. And that's just about how it was. I didn't have very much infection there. But we did have a schoolmaster who was a key correspondent, and I told you, I found out, and I tell you that, and the stuff get on too well on educational things, but sometimes they just find their bent in other things, and this master sort of lost it, and, well, I worked at school, so I didn't learn anything. I entered into the British Federation, the boys' boxing championships, and at my age they went, I won the British title. And as long as I was a boy, I'd been great for it. One hour from a lad with some thirteen of them. I realized that things weren't too good at all. My mother didn't stand any higher than that. She was just a wee dog of a lady. You know, I always think of myself when I see this little lady here. Where is she? Somewhere about anyway. Ah, that's it. I don't know your advice. It's not what it's about. I used to go right outside. I used to look at mum, and I used to say, do you not know me? It was nerdy. But there it was. She was just a wee little dog of a woman. And mommy said, and he was. And I realized that I had to do that. And I ran away from home. I didn't run away from home because I didn't like home. I didn't run away from home because, well, I wanted to be. Why, bro? But I ran away from home because I knew a number of workers were teaching. And I knew this, that if I'd run away, well, maybe the bigger teacher in the town he would have got away. And near us, we were in school free. It was fair kind. And I ran away, like most boys, meaning, well, you'll get a job there, and I went down to bed. And in my country, I don't know what they do over here, but in my country, most of the fairs, they have a boxing booth. I'd walked to the far left, but not some of his boys to find anyone that wants to fight them. And, you know, I'd probably stand for a few rounds with them, or they'd pick up some guns. Well, I went down to the fairground. If I looked around, then there's finally a poet who, I can't remember, for about ten years, after all, the time, the poem was there. And he had some of his boys out the front. He was offering them for the crowd to fight them. I remember just the land, at least tall enough for the land I know, for the land. I stood in the front of the crowd. I didn't change them as well, but as soon as the show was over, I went up standing in the car and said, could you give me a bite? I don't remember if you were aware. He looked and said, what are your bites, huh? Oh, I'll go to Europe. You'll like it, you can see. But I jumped up in the ropes and, well, I said, I won a noisy championship at the country and I could run out and start the wee bit. I didn't know very much, but I knew a little. And he said, well, you know, thank you, thank you, thank you. And he said, all right, oh, I'm sixteen. I won't. But it was. I was. I was in the past fifteen grades. I thought I'd come up to you. I did your job then. You said, Er, I don't know if I have to fight. Well, I don't have to fight. You don't have to do any jobs without your pay ever. And I started the first work. I got five things a week now. And what would that be? Eighty things. Something like that. Well, not a dollar. Not now. Not now. It's a day away. But there are five or five things I know at the end of the week. We've got it for a good time here. I've had it walk the whole town now. The first five years have I ever had in my life. It was in my own. And I said, ma'am, I'm going to hold them up, and I'll get back up. And I said, that is perfect. Just a big lump of a raw lump. Just wanting to make a mark. Wanting to earn some money. Wanting to enjoy everything. So I went off. And the other country's going to win the month. And the fair just had all very much. And so the little man came and I returned home. But I hated it. I don't hate it. Okay, it's kind of hard. It's like, do this and do that. And in my home, you did it. I was twenty-one, but the mother broke the last kicker caught in the back. I'll show you who's ahead of this thing. Wham! You know, I'm going to take it. Oh, thank you. Oh, thank you. Oh, thank you. And there it was, that I just painted it. And I was glad when the next year came round, and I was off again. I don't say very much more about those years. Perhaps you don't live as I was living when I was calling for you. But sometimes, huh? In my days, while I was working my way out, I suppose, I would do the fight in an open air show in Crystal Palace on all the same products. And so I'd take off the pair, or a muscle code that I'd get into proper training, and what I was fighting, I'd got a knock on the jaw. I was losing a knock on. I went along to see the dentist, and people had to stop and I said, well, will I be right? This is the beginning of July. Will I be right? It's a great holiday. Oh, you get a little bit of that. So just quietly, what happened the other evening, I was so-called, what happened then? I went to the pub one Saturday night to have a drink. It was one of them all. And then I went, oh, I was leaning against the fire and having a drink, and suddenly the door opened and a little surveyed army like me. Complete for war crimes, you know. Fire war crimes. She came to me, and I said, I'll try to walk around and see if you'll sing a song. I told you the other day, I didn't think she would. If she did, I'd want you to sing a song. I thought she was some day he fell, or something like that. But she said, I'd be very happy to sing a song. We asked the men that it was. Well, I said, then, that was the last thing in the world I wanted to do. I didn't mind the girl singing, but I didn't want to be the chairman of a religious meeting in the song where I used to. So she put me on the clock. And I turned to a client of men and said, follow me and be quiet, but you're a girl to the thing. She jumped up on the table and was a public fire that I broke her down in my hometown. She sang the old Red Cross. Oh, I didn't know it. She couldn't all think in. But I leaned against the bar, and just as the thing that passed my mind. I can remember a girl from yesterday. I looked her up into the face of that girl. You couldn't have been more than a man eighteen than I did. I've never seen her from that day to day. I'll be ahead of anything one day. And I've never seen her from that day to day. She stood there, and she sprang about two. I said to her about it. Oh, that girl got more background than I did. I would have fought anyone in the bar. Oh, I don't say I'd have beaten her, but I'd have fought the man I would have enjoyed it as well every minute. And I wouldn't have stood there and sung like Jesus, not me. It's not before I found her cussing drinking there. She was preparing to stand there and sit on her bench. You know, I left her behind on the bar, and I walked back. And as I went back from the home, I was saying to the half-man, What a fool you. What a fool you. He tried to make a girl a foolish, and she made you a foolish. But I think some of you men will understand that. That was the first time in my life that any thing religious ever had. Oh, and every English day before, we start the day with prayer. Every day, I have had our revival lessons. That's the cross in every school in Great Britain. And so through school, I learned like a parish. Some of the things of the Bible. How many things are there? I never laughed at Stanley once in front of him, saying, I am compelled to teach this, but I want you to understand, I don't believe it. Oh, it matters that it doesn't matter nothing. It doesn't matter. But I walked up home, as I went home, I realized that here was a girl for whom it met everything. I used to think that to be a Christian was going to become corrupt for me. You know, the fellow you see, he kept cold, dying and lonely at all. So everyone I knew that was religious works, but he wasn't quite men, you know. I thought of all the boys that played rugby football with me, and the fellows that ran with us, and the fellows that fought with us. And there wasn't none of them that prepared to be a Christian. The only one by her, I never mentioned, the things of God. Well, if you picked a ball up, then they'd have fallen over. And I used to think that a bit of Christian was the least one that said. But I suddenly realized that long journey. Oh, I've converted that. How long she can recognize that that was the child? And there was something else that crossed my heartbreak. You see, my father was the founder or one of the co-founders of the old ILC in Great Britain. The Independent Labour Party, or so, next to the Communist, the most known socialist movement in England. And we were brought up, and we were red flagged, and he was a nationalist. So we were brought up, and if a person could be anything, without just being a communist, that's what we were. As red as it is, my father could experience in the war, and the fact that he was gasped, and the fact that his family would let all those deputies give them his talks. The people earlier, the people that came to my home, were all people like them. Just like that. And you know, I have a friend. And this friend said to me one day, Dad, why don't you come with us on Sunday? Or where are you going? Well, he said, I go along with a little goth ball. Oh, what? Sure, go along with a little goth ball. You see what they did, was they? So after the Bible class Sunday afternoon, they used to give them tea. You know, not a drink of tea, but tea we eat. No. The idea was to keep them over for the gospel meeting at night. And my friend was met for the Bible class, and he went out of the gospel meeting early. He was always there for me. Well, come on. So he said, well, what did you come with it? So off I went. Not quite knowing what it was all about. No, it was a, well, what's the case, but it was kind of a little gospel. You know, you went down a little passage right under there. And there we sat. And the leader of the Bible class, a man by the name of George Harper, who has proposed one of the greatest teachers in our country today, he was sitting there with about thirty or forty young fellows. I sat down. He said, we're at prayer. You need silly fellows with me all about their head. And I looked around. And he started the prayer, and I had enough. And I went, Oh my God, I went, Groot. And listen, that was the second thing. That was the thing. You remember I was reminding you that God shined? That was the thing. Because everyone knew who I was. And there, I didn't know anything about it. The player in that little cup. They decided to pray for me. I never went back again. I didn't even say to listen to the talk. I was out before the first prayer was made. But I made a contact with some folk who believed in prayer. And for three years they prayed for me. I am told I knew nothing about it, but my wife has told me that for three years my name was mentioned every week at prayer meeting. And I didn't know any other way. They prayed. I wonder how many of us have prayed for three years. But that's the life of telling you about prayer being under. It has kept my faith. So let's go back to where I was before. And I was firing with a firing fire to remind me, get me a mountain up on the door. You can do that, as a matter of fact, it's very nice to know I've never really counted it in the world. Very little. Let's go. He's not talking to you, sir. I went to the dentist, and the vet ward. And I was there not waiting for a bit. I went for a walk. Went down towards the pub where I used to drink. Right opposite the pub, there was a famous pot of gran. It's not there now. They go round the vine. But there was a famous pot of gran. Well, I opposite the pub. I was thinking about he was being erected. And I knew where all the family were, and I looked, and there were no caravans, and there were no blinds or anything like that. I looked at the queen for the first time, who said, Oh, I went and leaned over the fence, and said to the fellows that were working like, Hey, what's going on there? Oh, they said it was off, didn't you? Oh, you really did. Oh, hello, hello. I went away. So they popped this tent, so I popped this at the pub where I drank. And I brought men over the hill over the evening, and I liked the other thing. Half they did. They could see. So it was a tense paper here. Everything that was going on that side. Well, I don't care. It was very cute. Well, I don't care. It was very beautiful singing. But it was good, lucky singing. And there I was. And there I was a great raw, stoned lad of about twenty-four years of age. And I was reading on the fence listening to the thing. And now I hear the preacher say, we will commence the service with. Because they always had a song service with it before service. We will commence the service with it. I was gone. I didn't want to hear that. So one evening I was walking over the hill, and they had decided to leave. So I was going up over the other hill, and coming down the hill, sort of the young lady. So the young lady was giving out what eventually turned out to be correct. I didn't know what they were as well, just because I found out. But everyone attained, she stopped, and she gave them something, and I said, Look at that. And I actually crossed the road. And my friend came, and she stood in front of me, and she said, Oh. We accept this little dot, dot moment. We're just going to have some services. We're just going to have a service in the end of the heart of the hill. Will you care to come with me? And I looked at the young woman I did. No, I don't want to go there. But she could be mom. Now, I know what I'm talking about. I've been married to her for many years. So tell her that. She don't need to be mom. And she said, well, then I could go on and on. And we went into the tent. I remember if I took ten out of the tent in the back. I find the most intrepid. Just looking around, the view is there. Oh, he comes here. You want me to come to you, I tell you about him? Oh, ah! Oh, why have you ever been here? Oh, I knew most of the folks in the district. I said to him, hey. Oh, we're looking around at the view is there. The singing was quite... I can't remember a thing about that, sir, but that'll be all right. I don't think I'd be right. We'll go clear to him. And the strange thing, which is that I wasn't used to the slightest attention of a man. Ah, that's right. Now that would have been a difference with anything I said. I used to think that, well, well, live your things. It was one of your things, maybe after your money. Well, what's the thing next? Oh, well, let's... Oh, well, a number of folks shook me by the hand. Uh, they never said very much. But then, right, nothing else to do. All three, go and I went again. Say, and before I hung the night, I was halfway up the month. This might be, well, I know how it happened. Do you know her answer? I don't know her answer. If it's like this, the word of God, he's going to get his idea. If it's like it, I used to get angrier and angrier and angrier. So I was going to roll out a number. I'd been looking for a lot of people like that. You know, I couldn't stay away. Guess what? I don't stand there again. And from what night I went down and came down, and a few of the boys ran down. I said, come on, hello. Let's go on down to the next level. to have a bit of fun. But I backed it. And I didn't care where it was. He provided it before he did. But as soon as the therapist was over, I was quite happy with him. And I went to that great evangelist, met him with power. He was still alive. He's still alive. He's still alive. I went down to your plants tonight, looked at him, and I said to him, do you not believe that nonsense? He didn't want to go back to you. Well, he said, as a matter of fact, it's not nonsense. And then I do believe it. Go on, I said, you've got a totally good job. I've been giving you quite a time a week. Oh, good way, said it. And he was a great out of the sand. You know what he said. You know, as a matter of fact, I don't care. Well, you don't look too bad on that concern. But I suddenly came across something. You'll believe that the Bible was true. And when the Lord sent his disciples, when I part of them like church, he dared to say, but that's not so long. And he stepped out, chucked in the Lord, for providing me. And there he was. I had nothing to say to him. I just stood almost in the light of him. He said, you know, don't be telling me about you. Come on, you lad. You see, the person I'd want to wait for the match, eh? The man at the door gave me a book. And one look at me, and then chucked it up the other aisle. Shined the point at the end of the reading. Do you know why? When I walked into that tent, I suddenly found out it was a tent that was being conducted by that little hospital. Where three years before, for about two minutes, I sat down in the Bible class. Pray, pray for me! And I wonder he ran out the crutch. And I wonder he ran out the crutch. He said they'd been telling me about it. It's probably not being the Bible, isn't it? What? That old book. Take a lie. What? Oh, I can't give it. Did you show me one, Betty? Hi, I'll show you a hundredth one. Woo, come on, sit down. Sit down with that. What do you think that was the first one? Well, you know the first one I was talking about, but one that every eight-year-old is talking about. Oh, I didn't, Betty. Of course you know. You would have a one-size-fits-all. I said, look, I haven't had two sons. Who? One killed the other. And then he said, you went and married. Who did he marry? It's only at one time. question every year during your top ten. Do you mind it? Do you want that rattle day? If you look at these, I'm going to adopt them on, would you take them, show me? When he handed me his life, I'll do that with it, okay? I could talk out the story of Adam. I am the faintest idea where it was. But he gave me his Bible that I don't know about the fact I looked in revelation for the story of Adam. I just thought, well, if it didn't happen, well, I read it somewhere, I never read it forever. It's on that day, it's been my privilege in many different places with all sorts of different people. Sit down with them to discuss the truth of the word of God. And I found it out that the average person who tells me he doesn't believe the Bible's ever read in his mind. Never read it in his mind. I could have given you thirty or forty alleged contradictions in the Bible. I've met them from the parlour in a paradise. That's what they told you about one of the ones. He said, you said you'd show me. Well, he said, look at me. He said, look at me. He said, look at me. He said, look at me. He said, look at me. He said, look at me. He said, look at me. He said, look at me. He said, look at me. He said, look, look at me. He said, look, look, look, look. He said, look, look, look. He said, look, look, look, look. He said, look, look, look. He said, look, look, look. Look, look, look. Look, look, look. Look, look, look. Look, look, look. Look, look, look. Look, look, look. Look, look. Look, look, look. Look, look. Look, look, look. Look, look, look. Look, look, look, look, look, look. Look, look, look, look, look, look, look, look, look Well, all right. So I thought about your old one among the Israelites. And a millionaire. And Joseph. I can hear it here. Therefore, Joseph was told. Damn you. And it says one place he was told that a millionaire, and one place he was told that a millionaire, and one place he was told that he was told that. Noisy? He said, you said you'd show me. Well, I didn't know where to go. If I didn't know where Adam was, I didn't know where Joseph was. You know what I mean? You look at him. You look at him. You look at him. You look at him. You look at him. You look at him. You look at him. You look at him. You look at him. You look at him. You look at him. You look at him. You look at him. How did he look at him? He looked at him. He looked at him. He looked at him. He looked at him. He looked at him. He looked at him. He looked at him. He looked at him. Well, he said there. No, Pan, you don't have to worry about that. What are you? What do you mean? Well, what nationality are you? Oh, I'm good. I'm English. Please don't like much more British. Well, of course I'm British. What do you think you're holding your English, man? What do you think that's what it is? Just like that. Here's my life. I mean, you know. Well, it's the name for the general country from which they come, and by the name of the club. Just like British and English. But that one got knocked over, Peter. But he said, that's you. Now we've got something. You've got more to go. What's the next one? Well, the next one I've got it out. You know, the story of the blind part of me. Oh, I said, I got it. You know, there's one in the Bible. I'm not quite sure where it is. Right there. I read it. I read it. I read it. I read it. But it says that he took never a man called Mark on him before he got in there. And the next one said he made him a part where he got to go. And there you come, didn't he? Oh, didn't that, didn't it? A fantasy is Bible, then you said it's true. So I told you I didn't know it. I read it there from where. You know, it became warmer and warmer and warmer. I read it. Now you open it up and you show it. Oh, you add the two similar stories and not the same story. But the main part of it is is only used once. Oh, my gosh. I've told you that so that I've learned like a parrot. You know, they're town depictions of the Bible. You met every one of them. So you met every one of them. By not being insane. You said you'd show me. that he wouldn't. I met a man who knew his mind. I never come upon thee, folks. Somehow tell their way about the fish. You know why, and if they know their way about the fish, don't you? If you were to ask me, well, how do you get to, uh, what, someplace around here I couldn't tell you? For the simple reason I've never lived here. Have I been here for just a couple of days? I don't know all day around. But if you came to my district and you were to say to me, okay, can you tell me where I'm at? Here it is. Yes. I've been living there. When you live in the scripture, you know your way about it. Listen, if you don't know your way about it, then I need you to sign you haven't been living there. You might have got there for occasional tourist holiday. When you live there, you know your way about it. And he told me his Bible that he knew his way about it. And I want you to convert me after an emotional meeting, after a lot of people finish games, and ask you to be able to put your anger. Because what do you? I want some fucking you after hours of sitting down and saying, I don't accept that, I'm not right. Every time you come back to me with a picture, I ask somebody about the word of God, and then suddenly you look at me and you say, no, listen, you've got no more to say about this. If you've had enough to acknowledge, you've got no more to say about that. Now let me tell you something that's not to say about you. Not what you've got to say about the body. He called me out with a sense. No need to tell him. Oh, I knew that. Oh, I knew that. Then he told me from his war that God had it must end there of me. And his son would lie on every cross. And when a man was uncomfortable, I was that man. I sat there. I could have gone up and gone ahead if I could. You know, I tried to lose it. I couldn't even lose it. She went on and told me that Christ, and if I would give up my life to him, he would forgive me. And I can't explain it. The old cockade said, there are some things that have helped and helped. I only know this, that I was conscious that I was a sinner. And if you were asking when I went in, if it was a God, I would stand on the ground. And I knew suddenly that there was a God, and I was angry with you. I was not sure if I could argue that truth. I only know that it was true. When eventually I didn't. Just sit down and leave, and say, five, seven, eight, seven, seven, seven, seven. Do you know what I'm saying? You say, what did you still say? I meet Pope and tell me that when you get some bread, you do know that you can jump over the moon. Ah, I don't. I was more wretched and more miserable after I'd asked Christ to say to me, than I'd ever been in my life. I didn't feel a bit different. I didn't feel some burden rolled off my back. I couldn't shy and let the burden roll away. I was more miserable afterwards than I ever did in my life. I was saying, It was not my tears of repentance, of prayers. It's the blood of a nose for the whole. God knows this, but I made it when I made it, when I made it. I got up on the knee. A matter of fact, there and there, and I nearly knocked you down. Unknown to me, at the far end of the tent. Now, you're appreciated. That's why I didn't like that. Didn't that tell you I was after the meeting? The far end of the tent, unknown to me, two young men that have been on their knees, praying. Prove me aloud, because I heard that. You're a friend. When they heard me, said, God, I'm a sinner. They said, Captain, that's it. I told you that. I didn't know, did I? He said, wait for it. I got knocked on that. He said, oh, what did it do to you? Well, you can break. Anyway, I said, well, good night, sir. And the man that led me to the Lord said, oh, I'll walk up over you then. We won't come over the hill. And you know what he did? All the way from the tent of my house. He talked to me about you. He said, oh, no, he didn't give me a lecture. He didn't say, no, you've got to do this, and you've got to do that, and you've got to do the other. He didn't say a thing that I had to do. But he just told me how he proved in his own life that Tyson hated. Just like murder, right? He was up at the home, and I offered him the hand and said, Well, couldn't I take time, honey? And he didn't say, Well, you leave, you go up to the door and walk right in. And my little mother was there, and wondering where I got to us, but he had to sit all the way in. Of course, I was ready for it, so maybe not. But anyway, he walked in, he looked at the monk. He said, This is what I did, Sam, got some sense. He didn't know what he was. I looked and I said, well, am I yet? I got myself a bit religious tonight. That's the only way I knew how to do it. I didn't know where I was. Suddenly my mother burst into sleep. She'd cried many a time over her boy when he rode home drunk at night. She'd wet many a time when she'd seen him come off black and blue with his wife. She'd never wet over me like she'd wet over me that. So she knew that if it was real, who was going to be a change in our hopes. And in her way, my mother prayed. In her way, my mother said, oh, do come in for my fault. Not even knowing who she was to pray. She was going to cross my leg with the Lord, who said, oh, hello. Does she know something? She brought this fear about life. She was going to write it. It's going to be a change in our life. Hallelujah. Praise God. Oh, I say, are you ever going to? Now, you heard me say the other day, and I would repeat it. I wouldn't cross the road to listen to a man say how mad he is. Not me. I thought I would say, when God could give you a silly forget this, let this find being you, which is also in Christ Jesus. And that's what I want to do. I want to forget it. I only know this. And I have to look what I do. And I'm thinking and thinking, pray love. And I have to be a change. And look, no one really didn't tell me that I had to be a change. She only didn't mean that we should have panned up and tell me I've got to stop swearing and stop lying and stop cheating and stop doing the things I was doing. I didn't need a picture of something. I knew I had the power to stop it. And I knew, listen, I didn't have the power to stop it without me, because I thought you'd need it. And it's just the low that I swear. I'm quite a women vote. Suddenly, I say, ah, well, that's what we are. I've got to stop doing. And then someone would turn on the phone and rip out the phone with me. I would say this. Because God saved the soul. He saved the tongue. On that day to this, I never thought. Not because I thought I was not going to anymore, Peter. I'm not. Oh, listen. I'm glad that there's victory in Christ. And that. And God knows that I knew so little. God knows that I met him when I met God. Why do you live? I had a contract that took me up there. That's why I served. I had every other Sunday. And I knew it from Sunday. Well, that would be both. I would have a contract copy of that one. Every Sunday I would have a meeting. Well, then, a copy of the book read. I was there. Oh, they didn't receive anything they had aboard. Those intelligence that didn't have a grip. Find that line. They wouldn't have been. After a bit I learned that the thing to do, the great Christian was doing that kind. I went to the boat and asked him to back what he was doing. Back what did he do? Back what did he do. Oh, gee. If the plan of anything was going, I'd have to put the plan in. Oh, by any means, I was to stand in the open army. Oh, they'd have let me take any part that I had to tell them. And if I wasn't there, he'd come back to me where you were, you know. I want to bring her. I thank God. That gave to me what made me. I thank God. Show me the holiness of the things of God. Did he know that you were right? That's why I was the name. Love not the world, but the things that are in the world. That any man loved the world, the love of the Father, not him. Do you know there I would check my heart? He had a dear brother's right next to me. sent it, and oh, you'd always want it. Oh, he said. Just go. If you love the Lord Jesus, you would find it. Might be a Christian type. I must have said, I said, well, how do you get your living? Wait, because I'm a Baptist, well, I'll get you. I have another one. Now go where he's going. Now, I wouldn't care. Look at my eye. I don't know. Oh, come on. Why don't you go here? Look, I'm not trying to justify your life, but you'll see in a moment. I wonder if someone put his finger on how you get your living. He said, you've got to live here. I wonder how many of you. How many of you would say, well, that doesn't matter. I'll finish with that business. I don't mind. Next week I won't have any wages, but no matter. But I continued. I carried on. I was a primary heavyweight handkerchief. After I was in the room. After I was in the room. And as I went along, I was reading the Bible. And I was seeking the liberty. That's all you have. I was seeking the liberty of the Lord. And as I went on to have the Lord done this, Christ is still ahead of a church. Those brethren were doing the right thing with life here. Now, I couldn't understand it then. By the way, I meant to say something to you about it. Now, though I dreamed those brethren were doing the right thing, there were some things that happened here. I said, you know what? There were some of them who were the most vocal of the Lord's day morning. I knew they carried out Bible bans and all the text on it. Oh, my. Oh, they were really it. But I go along on a prayer meeting Monday night. They weren't often there. I'd go on to the conversation of Father Eve on a Friday night, and they weren't often there. And you go, Father, I've often acted and changed my way in. And I asked for baptism. The Father that said, no, he opposed my name at life. I looked at him and said, well, you must say, suppose you do that life, isn't it? Why do you know it? You don't do it for any drama. You, brethren, if you take eldership in a meeting, don't you forget. The first thing you require to do is that you show me an example of a lot. An example of a lot. You've got to expect folks to come in a short air. They're just by the way. But the time went by, I'm not quite sure. And in my own district, you're looking at my question. You've got to ask them to go away with the boys for camp. Now, I was most interested in the other evening to look at the picture of the mayor before the air of your camp. I saw no evidence for a camp at all. I saw evidence for the lovely holiday home. with nightcloths and beautiful kitchens and your camps are out there where you go camp and you put tentcloths in the boys do their own cooking and dig down the trees and every day and every year well ours like to go for a tent all they know is a tent and we have a few and we can enjoy the winter even more things in the winter and the women who are having a weekend can't be and the man that said we can't be we've got to go to the camp tomorrow we've got plenty of young men from our country And I said to MacArthur who was looking after me, I said, Bill, you might as well go up. No, I'm not. He just was throwing on the plate. I didn't think I was going to fight his own. And he said, ah, you'll be right. And I'll watch him for it. So I went to a village in a boy town. Oh, I never did the one before. So I went up with it. But I didn't call it. Maybe not all the young men. The man that led me to the Lord, I said, well, you can't learn. I only hope they had an attack with a lot more people than I did. Oh, I went and went on a wonderful weekend. Oh, it was just a great crowd of young fellas and young lords. And I was hanging away with a great punch. Found you with a Lord's Day, and we had a wonderful time. It was a little different. It was a Sunday came, and I had to get up to lunch. And I said to her, I opened the hand of the sister-in-law. I said, I'm on the waker. Sheila. She said, Oh, was I afraid of that kind of one? Well, I was never afraid of that quite. So here was a man that led me to the war. say who that man is. Oh, yes, well, sure, but I want to tell you how to take it back a bit. So when a little man will catch me wet, and he's out back, he's trying to cry. So I've heard people cry in all sorts of languages, and all sorts of languages, and I've never heard such a bloodthirsty prayer all of us. You're in the out of town, and he started to pray that your father's crying out to us. Lord, we won't have power in the country. Let it get the other part of our back, so we won't be back now. I opened my eyes and looked at him. And he was running like an angel. Woo! Way finished. I said, Amen. Before I knew what to do. And I thought to him, I thought to him, but he was having sex with her. And I kept going. Can't we let him pretend that we'll make him our way down to the road. You get him in the car. I couldn't hold him back any longer, I said. But so, do you think we're quite trained like that? Well, that's just what he's saying right now. turned on me and put his hand on the shore and said, son, if you're doing something that you can't say about, you said, that's why you gave it up. My heart went down a little. Yeah, that was a much higher than ever anyone had touched. I was tired of it, isn't it? Well, I went up to them. I don't know if any of it, but I don't know how many of you have done any quite either. There's not many of you in the world, so I don't know if you've got anything else. You get there. just wondering how the other one was going to be, wondering what you're going to do, how you're doing, what's going on. Well, one of the boys that, when I was probably in there with the waiting in the morning, were some of the lads that were just finding the slimmering out, they were being abandoned just before they went in. And the donkey came in. He came in, just to have a couple of the lads that were just in some slimmering darts. And the doctor was a man by the end of the town, he was a Jewish doctor, and a very nice gentleman, much he was a Jew, and brought it up here. And I was just there, was a brother, and I'd be like a boy's dad. The boy was just getting me tripped out of it, getting her hands banged up. I did want to talk to you about this book. I had a little Bible. I had a little Bible. I used to look at a magazine or a paper or something like that, but just for. Well, I said, this is the Bible. I mean, you go down by the side. The next year, it's gone. It happened. He's spoken to me. I'll tell you how I am. I didn't get there. It's right there, right? So then he's like, there's a little Bible. And he said, come on, move it up, move it up there. He said, where is that? He looked at me and looked at the Bible, where he said, I say these things don't go together very well to me. And here in the Jewish plot, these things don't go together very well. And I suddenly realize that the man of the world has a fanger that will be higher than mine. I think we're going to go very well with this, that I gave you. But it started with a one-day, but it's the one-day. It started with a man saying that the Jewish plot should not go away. I thought it would make money to give it up. And continued with a Jewish doctor, and indeed two things don't go again. Well, I ran into the pipe, I was fighting a fellow by the name of George Markham, and I knocked me down a few rounds, and I was coming out of the ring, and as I was coming out of the ring, I put his hand up and put a shoulder and said, well, see if you can't do it. He was quite a violent supporter, and I had to add, but then he was a man of it. And we went in the office, and he was finally told he wanted to be the wife. In other words, a lot of caution, we made that happen, you know, and he was arguing about the fight, and all the other things that nobody did, and they were getting at it, he did, and I thought, well, it seemed to be out of the way of it, and this fellow turned on me, and swore, I mean, you know, he didn't mean anything like it. Well, I thought he was a bit rough with what he said, but he swore at me up, and I couldn't climb up and down. I came out. And I got on the train going, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh. I was trying to eat. Look, God's my gut. I was trying to eat. And that night I laid down, and I remember. You're doing something you can't pray about at the very time you gave it up. These two things don't go together very well. And I said, you could tell you, well, nothing to color down, and it looked further along the other way. And I came to the court, and the court. It didn't turn out to be that good. I was in torment. Because I honestly couldn't see what was wrong with it. So one day, maybe three or four days after, I went away to a public park in our business. I sat down on the bench and I had my bike. I was determined that I was going to pass it there. And I opened the Bible and I began to learn a little about it. I started to read in cinema. Started in the portion that I'd read to you and I started to read through cinema. Tell me I came to the qualifications of a bishop. And I said to you, don't you ever do? You have no right to take a verse and make a name what it's up to me. God can take his word and use it any way he likes it. You can't, but he has. So I started to read the qualifications of a bishop, and this... I was no bishop. But I started to read the qualifications of a bishop, and this is what I read. A bishop must not be a biser. No, it has nothing to do with boxing at all. No, I know that. But I read. More than saying that God took that person, I never had. I don't know if there was anyone else in the Parliament, but I might not have seen another poll there. It could have been crowded. I just don't know. I only know. I got off that cart bench, and I sat down on the knees on the tarmac. And I said, God, if you want me to give up party, do you find me another job today? And I didn't want it to answer that question. Didn't want it to answer that. And who wanted another job anyway? I got enough money for it. But I put God to the test. If you want me to give up party, do you find me another job today? I got up on the knees. So we've got terribly embarrassed. something popular like me on the knees in a public park. I started to walk out of the park. I went down a little bit down a hill. I came down a little hill. I came down a little hill where I met a girl with my wife who came in there. And if I walked out of the hill, going down a little bit over the park, I was like, he would be sad. Hello. How are you? How are you? What are you doing? Are you? I'm talking to my partner. He said, would you help? He had a little farm just like a side artist. And he got a load of potatoes there. And he said, well, you've got a load of potatoes to hand you. Ah, an old machine. And he said, I got a load of potatoes back there that fucked it. Wearing them. So you come and pick them up from it. Oh, this was different. You know, I asked the Lord, are you finding another job today that I just need to get a potato? You know, I'm going to go to jail, John. Before the war in our country, because this was thirty-nine years ago, before the war in our country, upon they were thirty-five times a week. Thirty-five billion was a week. Well, I remember I said, God, if you will, I will. And I went to eat with me. See? Oh, shit. But I put God to the tax, and God put me to the tax. Brethren, you be careful when you ask the fine from God. You be careful when you put your feet in the field. that God might come back in a higher way than any other way. But I said, I will if He will. And I did. On that day of it, well, I can't say I never could have done it, but I've done it because I have. And finally, I've never thought perfectly about that name. I laid aside how I don't really know my time. I started to remember a part of it. And I will say this. And as I look right now, not when I look at him, not when I look at him, I know when I look at him, I look at him, I look at him. And as I look at him, I look at him, I look at him. You want to understand me. I thank God I listen to that person on the very phone. And as I assume that I'm them, I commend. And when I lay to the side, I lay to the side, because if I give, I die, I come back. And I had to start all the way back. just a great lustful humanity, and that's a little of a lot. That's not my education, Dan. And in my country, you know, you don't go back to school again. It's not like over here. Folks don't work their way through college without you. You've never quite found anything from school. I started going on to a hospital, sitting with a crowd of little children learning the ABC almost again. Not quite that, but almost. I was twenty-six years of age when I passed in the fifth century. I owe everything to God. Esther, King, I have, and have, I never hoped to see I owe it all to you. Sometime after I've written, I've noticed that God was reading a thing that is concerned. Now, I hate this expression full-time worker, that I would be half-eyed eating. I can't think of anything more unscriptural than that of a full-time worker than a pollination of it. A pollination. You know something, if every one of you has not a full-time worker, it's a bad-time worker. You know, it's not funny how we've got the work of God all set up in little leopards in Turkey, even on earth. God forbid. Wherever we go. You know, there was a man by the name of Peter. You'll remember that idea, won't you? The picture of it, by the way. Did you know that? It was a picture of it. And the Lord said there was one day, Peter, go and let down your neck for a glass. The Lord always assumed something. Go and let down your neck for a glass. And he wasn't ready to do it. And he said that because you said it, Lord, because you told me to do it. I'll do it. He was a weapon for the Lord. So the Lord told him to do it. You know what he did? He might catch him fish. But he did it for the Lord. The Lord told him to do it. Father, if you're not a father to the Lord, you're not a father to the Lord. Dad, if you're not a father for the Lord, you're not a father. And, sir, if you're unfit this and you're not unfit this for the Lord, you're not mature against this man. God doesn't look at some people and say, these are full-time workers and these are not full-time workers. They're all in work for God. They work for God, pushing the city's mother, and work for God at the bench higher. They're serving God. We're living our lives out for God every moment of it. Oh, God, you have to realize this. We understand what we've seen by the expression. There's no central one, you say. And don't you think it's as easy to be tricked or as uncritten? Are they in it? Are they in it? But they came upon you, right? One was going to occur at no harm or more, the other than no. I'm not going to rule how it happened. I only know this. If my own assembly was prepared to commend me to the work of the Lord. And I think that's the first qualification for anyone, sir. If you haven't got the commendation of the meeting for which you are intelligent, or the which are intelligent, and you've no right to ask someone else, you should get away from that. That's as clear in the Word of God as any person. And my own pulcher said to him, after a while, we said, I had twenty-eight years before, I mean, in the clear, and which I do now. With my joy, I listened from very other countries, for at least half. I've had the joy over these half years of the team. I believe I went insane, fifteen new attendees. So we went in and there was nothing, and now there was nothing. So I looked God and prayed God for. And I only know this, If I look back over my own life, I want to forget those early years. I haven't talked about them, I don't want to. I only know this, so I must stand up alone. Hallelujah. Hallelujah. Hallelujah. I want to tell you this. Jesus Christ is no mystical person. He's not the one who lives millions of miles away, but I've got to shout at the top of my voice to make him hear. No, no, no. No, that should be my day. My Lord, I want to prep home this morning. But if I look back over my own life, we look down to quite anew. He's never failed. Never failed. He's been good. And I've got confidence in him. But come on. I don't know what tomorrow means for me. I don't know. Maybe tomorrow the Lord would have me go back quietly. I don't know. If he does, I'll go party to him. And it'll be just as good for you. Just as good? I don't know what he wants me to do. I only know this. But at the moment, I believe my answer is God wants me to be. Doing what God wants me to do. I had a great deal of what you'd say, yes, when I was invited to come over to your account. For a matter of fact, I kept putting the letters aside until the next week. The good brethren told me from the marriage of England. Oh, dear. Danny, you're going to clap? I don't know. It's not easy to say we're going to do things. I want to be where God wants me to be. I don't want to be anywhere else. My goal is not. There's about any part of the year that you might enjoy who have led the Bible reading from the University of Cambridge every year. And every year, I think, until I was thirty-five or forty-hundred graduates, let me down into the tent where I'd be in Cornwall. Now, I'm here because many years, now, twenty-one years, every August, I've spent the time on the beach in the toilet. We have the showing down around us this, and then you probably know some of you have been over. We have the largest children's meetings from all week. We've got a plenty of them, we have a hundred children every day on the bank. And we'll get to work. I don't want to leave it. How can I come away for a few lives without it? So the boys were with me in the pen. I had thirty-five of these undergraduate students. One of them, Hugh Williamson, who was a graduate in theology college. Kennedy College came and was going back now for his postgraduate work. And he said, look, man, if you want to go, I'll run the show of work if you say, oh, I need it. So I'm going to get some of the other books. So suddenly they stepped in, and the strategies on the graduate and said, well, we'll do the work. So I'm going to work on that. Not that you think that? No, the text even, well, quite finished. Oh, we haven't got any of the text even though. What's that done with? I haven't even had to put the tender where you're at. Oh, please don't put me in the same camera all over again. Maybe you can put the tender at it. You've got the jar and you're opening up with it. Maybe you can't do it. So let them be valued. They just want to be where God wants you. Do what God wants you. And like you or that's what you want. Or let's pray once and The Lord, we've let you together for the opportunity just to share in a little at what Christ is and what Christ is that. We want to thank you, Lord. But now that James Long, St. Benedict, you're a bishop in Christ people. We've a bishoply that each one of us. May he be hard on that faith.